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18-05-2021 08:47 PM
18-05-2021 08:47 PM
Re: Centaurs attempt at a new life
For me it's feeling like I'm drowning. I can't breathe.
I'm smothered by my emotions but I'm just staring blankly at the wall because there is just so much and I'm dissociated.
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18-05-2021 08:54 PM
18-05-2021 08:54 PM
Re: Centaurs attempt at a new life
Glad you've at least got some tunes there @The-red-centaur I've delved back to the music from my high school years, and I shall leave a song here for you (in the next post)
I know that when people talk about dissociation they tend to talk about it in a negative light. I'm no doctor, but I think it's pretty amazing our minds can do things like that. When we hit this overwhelming point and it's like everything goes numb so we don't have to feel the pain anymore. I think it's our brains way of trying to save us, if that makes sense?
Can you make sense of any of the feelings or thoughts as they come up? Is it bringing up memories of people, places, what kind of thoughts are coming up for you?
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18-05-2021 08:56 PM
18-05-2021 08:56 PM
Re: Centaurs attempt at a new life
@The-red-centaur Do you recognise this one:
Can I help you, not to hurt, anymore?
We saw brilliance, when the world, was asleep
There are things that we can have, but can't keep
Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We're quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do
In the kitchen, one more chair than you need oh
And you're angry, and you should be, it's not fair
Just 'cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it, isn't there
Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We're quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We're quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do
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18-05-2021 10:45 PM
18-05-2021 10:45 PM
Re: Centaurs attempt at a new life
'Oh I swear my emotions are the enemy
Be dead by now if I'd have done what they were telling me
Whisper lies, but they sound like half-truths
Confusing a sick mind, isn't that hard to do?'
Idk my thoughts or emotions anymore...it's easier to vibe along to relatable music.
all I know is I don't wanna be here n i don't wanna be alive.
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18-05-2021 10:55 PM
18-05-2021 10:55 PM
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19-05-2021 04:19 AM
19-05-2021 04:19 AM
Re: Centaurs attempt at a new life
@The-red-centaur I'd be crying too. That's pretty heart warming. What kind of arty stuff did you get? I used to do a lot of drawing back in the day, recently picked up the pencil and started drawing up a new tattoo design. And I'll tell you what it is, despite the embarrassment that goes along with it: The red and green power rangers, one with a smoke in his hand, the other with a drink. It kind of makes me laugh...
Yeah, I hear you, emotions can be unruly bastards if we don't tame them hey? I've been doing some thinking on this, and you know what I've realised? Emotions and feelings always shift. They take us up and down, but what we feel now isn't what we'll feel in a months time, six months time, a year--it constantly changes.
I know it's consuming when we're in the thick of it, it's really tough sometimes to pull through, and I wish it wasn't so hard for you right now. Hold on to that warmth you feel from the nurse showing you some kindness, and try to comfort those painful emotions with that warmth.
I hope you've managed to get a bit of rest there mate, but if not, pump out some sick sketches for me. Maybe I'll get one of them tattooed on me 🤙
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19-05-2021 05:31 PM
19-05-2021 05:31 PM
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19-05-2021 06:06 PM
19-05-2021 06:06 PM
Re: Centaurs attempt at a new life
Thanks for the update @The-red-centaur how are you feeling about the move there?
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19-05-2021 06:10 PM
19-05-2021 06:10 PM
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19-05-2021 06:22 PM
19-05-2021 06:22 PM
Re: Centaurs attempt at a new life
Yeah of course @The-red-centaur incredibly hard to get any rest in a hospital hey? Do you know much about the place and what to expect when you get there?