Life and trauma

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 oh there was shampoo mixed in with it, and just because it says that it has coconut in it doesn't mean it tastes like it 😂. 

[MJG017]

@Former-Member 

False advertising if you ask me. 🤣

[Former-Member]

Thanks @MJG017 . It's been a rather good day and it feels so strange to say that. But at the moment i kind of feel like nothing can bring me down, like I know I'm still facing very hard days to come but at the moment it's a little further back in my mind. 

Thanks for explaining things so well and so that it makes sense. It really hit all of a sudden and I just felt like bubbly inside like I just wanted to smile, dance and have fun, it was a vaguely familiar feeling but one I haven't felt for many years. So it was a bit of a shock to the system and like I said my brain didn't want to allow me to feel it, but I pushed through that and just let it happen and I'm glad I did

I've made it to my bed and now I'm going to do my colouring. Can't wait to start my diamond art tomorrow. Oh and my doctors appointment is tomorrow at 12pm. 

How was the rest of your day and how's your partner? 

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 i agree. If it smells like anything edible then it should taste like it 😂

[Jynx]

Oh SUCH a bonus @Former-Member geeez woulda been a tragedy if you burnt your artsy fingers!! 

Got any aloe? Goes amazingly on burns!

[Former-Member]

@Jynx wouldn't it just. I need those artsy fingers to keep me sane 😂.

I do and I've put some on, my hand is just super warm and nice and red. At least my doctor can look at it tomorrow when I have my appointment, just another thing to add to the list 😂.

[Jynx]

@Former-Member exactly!! Like a pianist's hands, they're precious!! Did you know some professional pianists actually insure their hands? Wild!!

ahaha you and me both. List that won't stop growing!! I'm so overdue it's not funny... really wanna get my ASD diagnosis AND get the process started for hormone therapy, but alas... first I must make... A PHONE CALL. 😫 yuck. 

Also!! I thought I should let you know that I will be away next week. It's my bday on the 25th and I have taken a bit of time off for some adventures! I'll be back on Monday 3rd March, but thought I'd give the heads up so folks aren't worried about me! 😉

I should probs bid you nighty night!! I'm off at 9. I hope your burns don't give you too much trouble hun!! Can't wait to see any art that you make between now and when I return as well 😊💜

[Former-Member]

@Jynx yeah my hands aren't worth insuring 😂.

Oh my list is so long it's ridiculous 😂. Ugh the phone calls are the worst, I've had to make so many lately and every time I fight the panic attacks off, it's exhausting. I send you lots of strength to be able to make that phone call. 

Oh no, you can't leave me 😂😂. I'm glad you get some time off and especially for your birthday, but i am gonna miss our chats during that time. We will have to make up for it once you are back ☺️.

Nighty night, hope you have a good night ❤️. 

[Former-Member]

@Ru-bee currently sitting at my doctors surgery in a crowded room, it's busier than usual and I don't like it. Trying so hard to not have a panic attack, part of me just wants to walk out and not bother waiting cos it's too noisy and busy here. 

Trying to remind myself how long I've waited for this appointment and how much I desperately need it. 

[Ru-bee]

You can do this @Former-Member, look at all the steps you've taken to get to this appointment already, just a few more to go.

Deep breaths, and know we're all here behind you