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@outlanderThat is a good idea. You dont always have to WORK with the horses. You have a right to be able to calm, quiet and close to the things you love.
Thank you both and @CheerBear for well wishes today. I am trying to get my cat a special brand of dry food with a soft centre and it is sold out on all online and local stores. Must be a lot of old cats around.
Pity about the restaurant not being up to scratch. @eth but at least you all went out and made some fuss about it.
I just spoke with my support worker.
I think you were right about the fb request to offer me disability employment services. I have pulled out. I am not really ready. My anxiety sky rocketed and I was waking up all rigid etc, and that puts out my neck. I have to face the fact that my son and I have had a torrid year and that my priority should be our transition to the the NDIS. It is good he is thinking about work and study too. We both have a lot of internal pressure to work, but for long term security it is best to get some good plans going with the NDIS and maybe at end of next year, if all is going well, then think about a little bit of work.
Hope you have a good day.
@eth @Mazarita @CheerBear @Zoe7 @outlander and ALL
Pity about the restaurant not being up to scratch. @eth but at least you all went out and made some fuss about it.
I just spoke with my support worker.
I think you were right about the fb request to offer me disability employment services. I have pulled out. I am not really ready. My anxiety sky rocketed and I was waking up all rigid etc, and that puts out my neck. I have to face the fact that my son and I have had a torrid year and that my priority should be our transition to the the NDIS. It is good he is thinking about work and study too. We both have a lot of internal pressure to work, but for long term security it is best to get some good plans going with the NDIS and maybe at end of next year, if all is going well, then think about a little bit of work.
Hope you have a good day ...
@eth @Mazarita @CheerBear @Zoe7 @outlander and ALL
At home doing crafty things sounds lovely @CheerBear
@eth Cooking foryour clan sounds like they will eat better than last night.
I am glad I did not WAIT, let my unease about it build up, made the decision today and cancelled all relevant things. It is fine now, but accidentally I proceeded with my plans in the diary for tomorrow instead of today, so missed an appointment and did unscheduled work at the zoo. Red face. So yes they really put me off and I am more delicate than I realised. Should follow my own advice and gently bently.
Another thing I did today was working on my saying "no" and being heard. At the zoo, 2 children were approaching and playing with me. They were gorgeous and mum was chatting with us, but the little girl started telling me what she wanted me to do. It killed the play for me, becasue she was insistent that I get up and do certain things with the animals. I have often gone along with another's wishes, (in my family of mothering, after a few months I FELT I had no independent rights) but this time I hedp my ground, nicely, she was insisting for about 10 minutes, but I explained that SHE could do the actions she wanted, but that I was an old lady and was sitting down. In the end she accepted it, took the animal and continued her play. There were no bad feelings and I did not have to submit to another's will.
This was huge for me, as I had unresolved feelings about being bossed around by 4 year olds. Good god even as I listen to myself say this, I cannot believe how I embroiled my self into the toxic dynamics of my failed 16 year marriage.
Life is such a learning curve.
I hope my therapist whose appointment I missed will understand. I left a msg for her when I realised. I had the days totally mixed up.
@eth It just helps having our regular conversations. It helps me get a sense of what is appropriate. I really never had that growing up, with my mother, family, and by the time I had friends I was too placating, and never raised my issues that I wanted to discuss.
Last night, at rehearsal, a lady I had just met started chatting about interventions and human services, and I realised how foreign my experience was. I did not have to disclose to her and it would have been innapropriate she was just rambling on from the postion of her job, and making it social and general. I dont think I put my foot in it like I often do, I just agreed with her, and muttered about how heavy handed the NT intervention was.
Just getting the hang of how much to disclose and when has been a very difficult skill to learn.
