Depression and anxiety

[tyme]

Feel free to contact SANE helpline 1800 187 263 @Lula 

[MJG017]

Hi @Lula 

I just saw your posts.  I'm so sorry this has been such a tough day for you with the change in medication.  I'll keep an eye out on and so i'm around if you want to chat.

Do your best to get something to eat and drink, even something small will help and hopefully you'll be feeling a bit better soon.  I'm here if you need it in the meantime.

Take care of yourself Lula.

[Lula]

@MJG017 

Hello M and thank you for your reply. As I said I do know you have your own life, and your own problems, and can’t always be online, but I was hoping you would have been there earlier.

I guess it would be better if I were to connect with a variety of people and not rely on anyone in particular, but this is how it’s become for me, with you.  I hope that doesn’t make you feel pressured, but it definitely isn’t my intention. You being here on this forum has helped me a lot - thank you.

But I’m just being me, and being me has always been so hard to manage, even when I’m not depressed.

I haven’t had company all week, except for the cleaner, not even phone calls.  There are people who know what I’m dealing with who keep their distance and it’s extremely painful. And as I’ve said to you before I have no family or partner.

I did get some fruit and a small frozen meal into me and it has helped, but oh how I do need to be with someone, to talk, to give and get a hug, and if only I could cry.

If I’d known changing the meds was going to be SO HARD I would have thought 10 times before I did it, but here I am.

Anyway one day at a time as we say.

I hope you are ok, and if I may be so bold, I send you a virtual hug 🤗.

Bye for now M, Lula

[MJG017]

@Lula 

I don't feel any pressure.  I know we've chatted a lot and you probably feel most comfortable chatting with me.  As you say though, i'm not always around  And although i will always try to reply as soon as I can, you may find it helpful to reach out to other people here as well.  There's certainly no shortage of equally kind, supportive and understanding people here.  I'm not trying to convince you to do anything you're not comfortable with, and of course I'm always happy to chat with you, but if i'm not around and you really need someone to talk to in that moment, the you may find that having a couple of other people to tag helpful.  But like I said, it's all down to what you feel comfortable with and i will always be around to chat as much as I can.

I totally understand the challenges of just dealing with life when you're alone.  It's hard enough to find things to do with all that time when you don't get to break it up with frequent interactions with other people, even if it is just a phone call. It seems like a strange thing to say, but it is exhausting being alone so much.

Every decision is so much easier in hindsight.  You tried to make things better and it seems to have backfired badly.  The important thing is you'll get through it and with a much better understanding of the risks of changing medications.  None of us get these things right all the time, and i like to say we learn more from our mistakes that our successes.  I'm just sorry this one has proved so incredibly difficult for you.

Thank you for the virtual hug and i'm sending a big one right back. I hope it helps you through this difficult time and into another day.  A hug is nice at any time though.

I hope you're at least feeling a little better tonight.  I'll be around until bed time anyway if you do want to chat a little bit.

[Former-Member]

Hello @Lula I was reading through your posts and I'm sorry to hear things are really hard at the moment. Medication changes can be so tough on our systems and take alot of adjusting to. I know all too well the effects medications can have on us, I started a new medication on Friday night last week and it sent me into a psychotic episode and I ended up in hospital. 

Not having company around is hard especially when we are feeling down, I'm glad you have the forums and have that connection with @MJG017. M was actually one of the first people I started chatting to on here so I also have a bit of a connection with them. I know it's easy to feel so lonely when things are tough but I hope you know that you are not alone here. 

It's great that you have been able to eat a bit I know that in itself can be hard sometimes. The weather lately has made it hard to venture outside without braving the extreme elements. Hopefully the medications start to help you soon and the initial effects of starting them ease off. 

I'm more than happy to chat when you need to, I tend to be around a bit at the moment. Take care of yourself and we are always here for you 😊 

[tyme]

Hope you are okay. Thinking of you @Lula 

[Lula]

@tyme 

thanks for the contact Tyme

No Tyme I’m not ok.

i am very stressed. I have found this afternoon that the f’ing psychiatrist who I was supposed to see recently has charged me for an appointment I had cancellled with her. I have it in an email from her that she will waive the fee but she has charged me anyway. I have disputed this with her by email today. I have tried to cancel the transaction with the credit card company but couldn’t continue with the call because I was so confused and upset.

i am SO OVER trying to deal with this crap on my own.

[tyme]

That's so stressful. @Lula . Sorry to hear. I guess it's not stressful if people are 'loaded', but I guess every dollar counts for others and it can be so so stressful. 

I wonder if that payment can stay as 'credit' for you next appointment?

[Lula]

@MJG017 

I am feeling so bad - having bad panic feelings. I’m alone and feel so isolated, it’s scary

[tyme]

Hi @Lula ,

I'm sorry you aren't feeling the best at the moment. 

I just wanted to draw your attention to the Community Guidelines, namely:

We encourage to connect with members who are active e.g. those on other threads.