Don’t want to accept the pain

[creative_writer]

@rav3n I don’t know why it’s been brought up, though I will say you can’t always avoid disturbing online content.

I sort of feel lonely too, it is an isolating experience to go through something that’s so stigmatised to talk about. I can’t really go to my family and be like “I’m hurting over past trauma, all I need right now is safe person to be with me.”

[rav3n]

@creative_writer oh for sure, online content is so hard to avoid and manage too, not always easy to prevent being triggered.

outta curiosity, have you said those exact words to your family before? 

i come from a south asian family so i've always felt super uncomfortable and scared to say that sorta stuff to my family, and it defs made my childhood isolating.

you absolutely deserve a safe person. not sure if i'll get to chat with you more today, but i'll catch ya tomorrow - take care 💜

[creative_writer]

@rav3n I haven’t said those exact words, but I have tried talking to them about the trauma. They didn’t know what to do or say, they felt uncomfortable, so I stopped talking about it. I don’t even know how to find a safe person, I haven’t all these years.

I hope you take care and rest up. I hope you feel better soon 💝

[creative_writer]

I've lost so much

[Ru-bee]

Sitting with you @creative_writer 💜

[creative_writer]

@Ru-bee I don't know how to ever feel safe again. I have experienced too much

[Ru-bee]

Are there any moments or spaces that help you gain a sense of safety @creative_writer even if just temporarily? 

[creative_writer]

@Ru-bee there are things I can do to feel safer, I do find it hard to experience that prolonged safe (even if I am). My brain is wired for trauma

[creative_writer]

Will I get back what I’ve lost?

[Ru-bee]

Maybe we can't ever really get back things that we've lost @creative_writer but maybe we can build something new over time, something that's different from what we had, but that feels okay