I pulled an almost all nighter looking for things about my mum

[ArraDreaming]

I want to give her a hug, I want to invite her over for Christmas, I want her to see my kids @tyme and see the family we have built, the dad I grew into when I least expected it, now I have 1 kid that found me a the right time and made me a dad and two that are just little mini mes @tyme I wish she could see that

[ArraDreaming]

I also would take back a lot of things I said and did/thought
@tyme

[ArraDreaming]

She also never tried to stop dad from getting to us not physically anyway…. I don’t remember her jumping in to help us once

[ArraDreaming]

she never defended us against him actually not once that I can remember

[ArraDreaming]

she did her best but where was she when we needed her?

[tyme]

I'm hearing you. I know there are so many thoughts going through your mind at the moment. What thoughts you do think are helpful to keep? @ArraDreaming  Which are the thoughts that will help you become a better person?

[ArraDreaming]

I dunno @tyme

[ArraDreaming]

I just want to know more

[tyme]

Hey @ArraDreaming , I'm not hanging around, but I hope you get some answers or non-answers. Whatever is in your best interest.

[ArraDreaming]

Well that will be hard because she’s dead @tyme