My Mosaic

[Bow]

Yeah I’ve got a list @tyme  just need to find the motivation and drag myself out of bed. I’ve done a few bits and pieces but need to get moving.

[tyme]

Give yourself credit for even making the list in the first place @Bow !

Well done.

I wonder if it's an achievable list that you can break down and make smaller lists e.g. purchasing things you need to buy, organising what you need to for the trip etc.?

[Bow]

I’ve made it fairly simple @tyme I added like individual things to it over the last couple of weeks. Thought it would feel more achievable that way. Mums crossed a lot of things off over the weekend thankfully. 

new things pop up though that make me feel overwhelmed. And it sounds bad, but like catching up with my best friend before I go. Remembering I need to have my bloods done once more. If I stop and actually think about it, there is time. But it’s just all so overwhelming. 

[tyme]

Sure sounds it @Bow .

Maybe you gotta cut that list up into sections tonight so you don't see it all. OR, right down everything, and put it to the side of your bed because trust me, it won't run away tomorrow.

Show yourself some kindness @Bow  - you deserve it.

[Bow]

I spoke with my SW today. I’ve been withdrawing a bit and not taking calls, but she called and texted and then called again, so thought I should answer. She mentioned the text I sent last week about my trauma anniversary and thanked me for letting her know so that she can better support me at the moment. 
She came and did a home visit this afternoon. She wanted to know what she can do to support me…. But I don’t know. She was happy to do a home visit every day if that’s what I needed. She will come tomorrow, she will come with me to get my bloods done Wednesday and then Thursday after my psychologist appointment we will go for a cuppa if I’m feeling up to it. 
i told her I’m really struggling at the moment. It’s hard to get out of bed, it’s hard to be excited about our trip. My head, my body is just very much elsewhere at the moment. 

[Ru-bee]

Hi @Bow I'm glad to hear that your SW has been reaching out like they have and are able to have these talks with you about how to best support you right now. 

When are you going on your trip?

[Bow]

@Ru-bee  We leave next Wednesday. Feel like there is still so much to do. 

[Ru-bee]

That's definitely a familiar feeling @Bow isn't it funny that trips are meant to be these nice, exciting, hopefully even relaxing times away but the preparation usually brings so much stress and work

How long will you be away for? Have you planned some nice relaxing time or will be lots of activities?

[Bow]

Yeah it’s a stressful time in the lead up @Ru-bee  making sure we have everything we need and also making sure our house is ready for our house sitters. 

I think even the actual holiday can be stressful! Especially if you are going overseas. I’ve been to london before, so feel a little confident getting around on the underground. But then we are hiring a car to head out of london for a few days. And then Paris too for a few days. Our days are pretty jam packed with activities. I mostly like it that way, I like to be out exploring and doing stuff when on holiday. I can rest when I get home! 

we are away for 3 weeks. 

im watching a live stream of Taylor swifts final eras tour concert. 

[Ru-bee]

Oooh yeah, I feel like especially when you're heading all the way over to the UK and Europe you want to see and do as much as you can because it's so much effort and expense to just get there @Bow 

I can't wait to hear all about it when you get back from it

That sounds like a fun watch, it would've been amazing to go to the concert