Not Coping

[ENKELI]

I've never had much luck doing the punch needle kits. I love penguins and have seen some great kits but I am too impatient. You'll have to show a photo when you finish it, if it behaves!

I just dropped off some soda water to a girlfriend. We've known each other since we were 5 and throughout the years of moving around WA we ended up living within 5 mins of each other. She doesn't know much about MH but she is a lot more supportive than some people I know who claim to know about it. I'm doing a diamond painting at the moment. I enjoy doing them but  sometimes I end up overthinking and the negative thoughts take over.
Do you have any other hobbies @Birdofparadise8 ?

[ENKELI]

@Jynx so to use the term queer, is that derogatory?

I've had gay and lesbian friends and to my mind the only difference between me and a lesbian sexual orientation.

I guess I really don't understand why there is so much hype about who you believe you are when it comes to your sexuality and why should it matter? I know that is a very basic way of putting things and again apologies if it's offensive.
I would like to be able to turn around and tell some of my "Christian" friends that they are full of it and to shove their prejudice where the sun don't shine, but I would like to back up my statements with facts if that makes sense.

[bartart23]

I am guessing everyone as fine to bed 

I wanted to chat to someone I am late and a shit person useless never going to be good at MH never going to fight them I hate Bpd I hate voices I hate everything about me I am just a fatty person 

[outlander]

hi @beentheredone33 i am still awake. i also suffer bpd

[bartart23]

Hi @outlander  don't mind me I am just over my bpd and everything I am failure 

I wish the voices would shut up before I go off my head at them 

[outlander]

thats really hard @bartart23  i dont suffer from voices.
does anything normally help to quiet your mind?

[bartart23]

N @outlander  no nothing works I've tired everything music shower games watching tv  I am just about to g up I am just useless everyone was right I will just cry and sit here because I can't sleep  

[outlander]

do you have any psychological supports in place @bartart23 they may be able to help you control your thoughts more effectively.

i can i ask why you feel your useless? i dont think anyone is useless and though some may seem more helpful then others, its often the quiet achievers that get the most done

[ENKELI]

I have bpd 2 so no voices. I hate how MH makes us feel, that we are less than what we are. No matter what anyone else says I still look at myself and think I am too fat, ugly, too old, unlikeable, no money, can't keep a job (just ask my dad, he told me the other day there is something wrong with me because I can't hold down a job or keep friends)

I wish I had friends so I could go out and do something but then when I do have the opportunity I don't want to go out because I think people will be looking at me and judging me - gee she's got really bad teeth, why doesn't she get them fixed, wow she should be eating a salad not something so fattening. 

I am even starting to crave cigarettes even though I quit over a year ago. 

Right now I feel like screaming or smashing something.

I hate feeling good for a little while and then bad

[bartart23]

Hi @outlander no I don't see anyone because everyone is the same they all say the same things I give up on trying it just goes around and around with everyone nobody really cares about mh  

To them it's just about money nobody wants to hear me it's just take pills it make you better yea right when  pills are nothing they don't do anything  

It's just sad because nobody understands   I've talk to doctors mental health psychiatrist nobody helps