help feeling super depressed want to hurt myself

[Bunniekins]

@StuF  hi StuF feeling much better thank you. thank you for your care last night really appreciated it.💚

[StuF]

@Bunniekins 

So glad to hear you're better.

Busy day here, probably gonna clock off for the night. Hope you're ok 🙂

[Bunniekins]

@StuF  thank you for checking up on me. Take care of yourself too.

[Appleblossom]

Hey @Bunniekins Just got your tag now.  Internet not working for a few days.

There are lines where it is hard to come back from, and I am guessing you called in help for your son2, as you did not want him being responsible for something bad.   Fear of being bad, or doing bad can also be crippling. I guess that is something troubling your boy, and I wish I could reassure you both. The human imagination can be so rich and complicated. You have so much love in you. I do understand why people think and feel those things. My experiences of all that are from a different angle to yours, but I understand how intense and difficult it can be. There are devious forces out there, and somehow we have to keep them at bay.  That is why I use the image of the Interior Castle, which for me has solid 3 feet wide walls and built into solid rock and I only let inside the good. 

Glad @StuF was here for you and kept you talking instead of sinking. 

Good @Former-Member could contact you too.

 

 

I made tapestry cushions and curtains 20 years ago and I still hide under the cushions when watching tele with my son.

Sending you SAFE VIBES.

Love Apple

[Bunniekins]

@Appleblossom   hi Apple and thank you for being here for pea.  you are right there are 'devious forces out there'.   reality is often caught at the corner of ones eye.x

[Appleblossom]

Has your physical health settled a little. @Bunniekins I know you had a lot on in that area as well.

Life is not always fair. Hmmm.  Rarely Fair.

[Shaz51]

Ohhh sending you lots of hugs my @Bunniekins ❤❤

So glad @Appleblossom , @StuF , @Former-Member are here 🥰💖

[Bunniekins]

@Appleblossom   it has been almost a year since i was diagnosed with heart failure, sepsis, uti and pneumonia and i am almost okay. i cant walk far but am okay.💚

[Bunniekins]

@Shaz51  Shaz51 my sister xx

[Appleblossom]

Glad things are a little better with all those physical health things. @Bunniekins 

I knew it was a lot and serious.

Gently Bently with the walking.

Whatever works for you.

I scaled back my activity and physio etc thru Covid, just doing a few with lighter weights.

Got out to my guerilla garden today, which was really good.  Not been there for a few months.  Been too cold.  I had a bit to plant out, so took me big spade and did me thing.  Helps me to have a reason for moving and exercise.  Got so sick of mindless exercises, with me neck from years ago.  So thats a sign, (feeling the urge to dig holes for my plants) I am getting better.

Listen to your body bella.