I don't even know about living anymore

[Imkai]

• I'm 18m just finished school made one mistake and now my life might be fucked. I have no job, no self confidence, shy, think negatively about everything I try not to but do, and to add to this I'm getting blackmailed but a girl that's got my phone number and 18+ pics threating me to post them online and say I was talking to a 13 year old girl so my life is just great. I'm not suicidal right now but who knows. I have talked to police and other cybercrime businesses but I still think my life is going to get fucked up soon they said I have a week or else it was a scam but a real girl I don't got her number or pics so no way to trace them. I don't know what to do I'm scared, alone because I talk to no-one. So people stay away from people online unless it's work or people U know. This situation I'm in is making me sick, not able to breathe normally, physically weak ects. Stay safe people this is not fun. So time will tell in a week I guess guys I don't believe in god but Ima pray 

[Ru-bee]

Hi and welcome @Imkai 

This sounds as though it's an extremely stressful situation to be in. When we are under such stress it can create physical symptoms, like feeling sick or feeling short of breath. It is understandable that you would be experiencing these uncomfortable feelings at the moment while you're waiting the week out as you were instructed to do, but reaching out here and talking a bit about what is going on is a good step.

Did cybercrime offer any reassurance when you contacted them?

[Imkai]

Not really because they have the images we can't trace them and delete them off the internet so if they post them I'm fucked. They said I have done all I can do and should seek support but I'm not going to therapy, or discussing this with anyone face to face to shy for that probably make matters worse for me never liked interacting with people for the first time I hate it. So Im here pretty much waiting to see if my life is over its like getting into a car with a drunk drive U have it life in someone's else hand and it's terrifying I won't be scared of horror movies after this situation because this is way scaryer then any movie that can be made.

[Ru-bee]

This definitely is a scary situation to be in @Imkai 

It does sound like you've done all you can right now, but I know just having to sit and wait to see if anything else happens would be really really hard.

I know you mentioned in another post that you'd reached out to Lifeline. I hear that it's really hard reaching out and talking to someone for the first time, but if you're looking for some more support to get you through this time here are a few more options that offer free chat-based counselling support:

Suicide CallBack Service

Beyond Blue

Kids Helpline

Just want to make sure that you've got some options since this is a really tough thing to go through

[Imkai]

How do I make this public like all the others public discussion? I think that would be good for me maybe idk. I'll like to see other peoples view on this they might have been through this or not but any I'll like peoples input.

[tyme]

Hi @Imkai ,

To be honest, if they are using the photos against you for money, you can take it straight to the police. I know it sounds scary, but it could be just one big scam targeting young people.

You deserve to feel supported, not targeted.

[tyme]

Hey @Imkai ,

Your post is already public. Others can see it too, but they may not respond immediately.

[Imkai]

Like I said I have done everything I can do I have told the cops and cybercrime businesses to help me out all they can do is help me maybe take them down if they get posted. This person is overseas so it was a scam a scary good one because they used a real girl to make this happen which is fucked up haha I've never even had a gf but yeah I'm pretty much waiting nervously for this week to be over so I can see the outcome hopefully nothing happens I'm so ashamed of myself I know better than to do something like that because I'm a gamer I love technology I also know what scams are and how to look out for them so don't sext someone like I did without not knowing them fully. 

[tyme]

I've been involved in 2 scams in the past. It wasn't a nice feeling so I'm hearing you. The emotional turmoil that comes with it can be very stressful, and yes, sometimes it's about giving it time and riding out the wave. At the same time, being proactive about doing things that are healthy for you is also important. @Imkai 

I hear you are a gamer. Are there still ways you can continue gaming?

Otherwise, are there things you can do outside of the home that you enjoy?

[Imkai]

I find this funny chatting with online people about this but thanks you I appreciate it. Yes I have always liked gaming used the first Xbox to the Xbox 1s I think I have something that's not diagnosed because I have used it to get a way from this world hide away and to cope. I still can game but I need to get a job Im currently unemployed no car but my Ps plates and them threating to post it online to anyone I know and my boss it seems like I won't be able to get a job so that's also why I'm nervous.