Yep, I whirl around a supermarket like it's an olympic sport, bee line, self checkout and sometimes run o the car. It is so rare I go . I think you and @Snowie are brave and however gets you through is great.
Not at all opposed to hiding or changing direction to avoid people I know. @Snowie and I both have the comfortable at the hairdressers in common. Mine had a little converted garage off her house, loved it, just her and her dog. It was a rare family outing because I would take both teens. She just retired, no way would I go to a salon in town.
Accountability also works for me, especially with the Psychologist. Covid meant online was and still is acceptable but I feel good about showing up. I do try and do the op shop next door to her office after some sessions, sometimes I have to hide in the changing room if someone I know comes in.
The weirdest thing for me is that I get hyper overstimulated if being out is going well, like an extreme extrovert, I will have great lengthy conversations with total strangers. It's surreal and I crash with exhaustion after one of those outings. I will feel wonderful in the moment then inwardly start feeling unworthy. Honestly feel like I have freak show written on my forehead in neon letters.
Last two weeks, I went to a concert with my son over two hours away. I think that falls under accountability because he was looking forward to the gig so much. Can't tell you how many event tickets have gone to waste in the past. Anyway, felt a sense of achievement. I do wish I could stop the intrusive thoughts of being some sort of monster unfit to be in public, hope to break through that one day.
