Suicidal ideation and recovery

[Rusty6]

hey fellow peers, Can you share show you get through suicidal ideation without acting on these feelings?? as i am really struggling lately

[Ru-bee]

Hi @Rusty6 I'm really sorry to hear that you're struggling right now. You're certainly not alone in this and I'm sure that some other community members will be able to share some wisdom here soon. Until then I was wanted to encourage you to reach out for help when you are experiencing suicidal ideation. During these times you can always call Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467. And if you feel you are in immediate danger: 000

You don't need to go through those thoughts alone

[rav3n]

hey @Rusty6 i'm really sorry to hear that you've been struggling with those heavy thoughts and feelings. i know how hard it can be to push away those intrusive thoughts and reach out for support, i'm really glad you're here. 

for me personally, i tend to isolate from others when i'm feeling this way so i try to surround myself with people - whether that's reaching out to my psych or a friend, or even just going to public places like shopping centres and parks. 

i also have quotes/phrases saved on my phone that i like to read during those tough times to remind myself that i can get through this and the low feeling will eventually pass. 

Ru-bee's also linked some great services to reach out to. have you made a safety plan before? if you haven't i think it's worth checking out, there's this online tool where you can make one Suicide safety planning - Beyond Now

i'm sure others will be able to share some more strategies as well, you are definitely not alone here. 💙

[Rusty6]

thank you, I have reached to a crisis service [edited by moderator] when in distressed state of mine but they are just quick to call police on me instead of just letting me talk. But i will keep suicide call back in mind too/.

[Rusty6]

thank you for letting me know im not alone, as there are more days then not that i feel alone. I do shut down and push everyone away but i don't mean to at all. I am trying hard not to have another attempt its been 9 months and 20 days and counting.

sorry i don't know how to tag anyone yet 

[rav3n]

hey @Rusty6 i hear you about the pushing people away. it's something that i'm still working on at times, it takes a lot of practice. when you're someone who's so used to isolating, it feels a bit uncomfortable to reach out to someone and be honest about your feelings. but it really does get a bit easier each time. do you have a therapist/psych/health professional that you see regularly?

also we're so proud of you for reaching out and sharing this with us. as someone who constantly felt like a burden or felt like 'no one understood me', i know how hard it is to ask for help. but please know that you are never a burden, and you are worthy and deserving of support always 💙

oh and about the tagging - if you want someone to be notified of your reply, you type the '@' symbol and then type the username like this @Rusty6 - if it turns blue, it means the person has been tagged. let me know if you have any questions!

[Glisten]

@Rusty6  you are NOT ALONE.

I self isolate because I think no one likes me. No one wants me. No one loves me.

How does it happen that the scummiest people in the world 🌏 can meet someone who is totally devoted to them?

I think my life won’t get any better and that I’m a burden to my family.

That’s today.

What I need is 9 hours solid sleep.

[Snowie]

Hi @Rusty6 

You certainly are not alone. Not one little bit.

I find it hard to talk to others when I have suicidal thoughts/ideations. I shut others out too and think of myself as a lost cause, not worth saving, just a burden on others, useless, pathetic, oh the list could go on.

Having suicidal thoughts and intention does not make you any less of a person. I have also learnt that it's ok to feel this way. That these feelings are normally happening because a lot of things are happening for me in the background. Sometimes instead of trying to deal with the suicidal thoughts, I need to deal with why I am at this point.

One of the bravest and most courageous things you can do is ask for help. To ask and also accept help can show just how strong we really are. I find Suicide Call Back Service and Lifeline really helpful when I am at the point where I just want to act on my thoughts. The good thing is, is that you can ring them as many times as you want. There is no limit. I have had police turn up at my door before for a welfare check. No it's not ideal, at the time I feel let down, but I do understand that they have a duty of care.

Please keep reaching out for help. Once again, you are NOT ALONE. Thanks if you made it to the end of my LONG post!

@Glisten sending lots of positive vibes to you too. We are also here for you.

[Glisten]

Thank you @Snowie I guess we all feel a similar way and there should NOT be any shame attached to suicidal ideation.

Life is hard.

There is no shame in wanting the pain to stop.

[Snowie]

Hi @Glisten 

You are right, there should be no shame. At the same time wanting the pain to stop is something we all experience and it is ok to have these feelings.

I hope today is a little better for you.