Actually been telling the Doctors for years, something is not right with my thinking. I am not like other people. I see things differently. Some people told me to go for ASD as I was presenting those symptoms and was a huge relief to finally get an answer, it took a hospital to say it. I ended up in the Mental Hospital, actually got so frustrated with the small town Doctors and did try to commit suicide. Told Ambulance Officer, if you leave me here, you are allowing me to die, I have had enough. I am in a DV household with my ex, trying to get out of here with Government Housing as there is rental crisis. Police have been here 3 times, ex, finally now leaves me alone. Been abused from my mother as a child right through to an adult, which is the criteria for BPD and finally after a year, my Psychologist diagnosed me with BPD, the mental hospital called me a voluntary patient as I was trying to get into there. Not a place you want to go to. Never been to hospital under this criteria, but I was fighting for my life and kept telling them, you send me home, I go home to die. They treat you differently being voluntarily lol. It was the most scariest place I have been in. Kept to myself. As I was wheelchaired into the areas, there was no doorknobs, only key cards for access, in and out and eerily felt like I was going into a prison, never been in a prison or visited one. Everything was nailed down, perspex, no glass, everything smooth. The TV was in a box behind perspex too, That was the beginning over 2 years ago to get the right diagnosis for me
