@MJG017
Hello M
Yesterday, and even more so today, have been so incredibly hard. I woke to the news on FB yesterday that a very well respected and much loved member of the small-ish community I live in had passed away by his own hand. I didn’t know him privately but was around enough socially for me to be feeling absolutely gutted and sick in the stomach. It’s hit home really hard today. He was quite young with a young family and it’s so very painful to come to terms with.
I do know people I could talk with but no one ‘understands’ and ‘hears’ me the way I need to be understood and heard and that is so painful too.
I know I could call Lifeline etc, but that won’t work for me.
You M are the closest I can get to people being understanding - thank you for being there.
I’m on a pension and today a ‘one-off cleaning lady’ turned up - she had massively artificially blacked eyebrows, long black hair, dressed head to toe in black and including black gloves - I was gobsmacked - it was like the angel of death knocking on my door.
We had a massive storm here a few days ago - I’ve never before seen or heard anything like the lightning and thunder we got - the thunder was big enough, close enough, to make the ground around my place vibrate through the building. Today it’s heavily overcast and barely a leaf moving - this weather really is quite depressing as well - climate change UGH !
I want to cry my heart out - but it won’t come.
