Hi @Shaz51 @Meowmy @Former-Member @Bunniekins @Olga 

I can't really reflect on social relationships... I've lost touch with family and friends (which I greatly regret) and a simple conversation with the neighbours can leave me ruminating and upset/regretful at my ineptitude. I focussed on work and daily getting by for years. I'm not sure which is more stressful, trying to reach out or being lonely. I do feel for others in the forums who are carers as well as fighting their own battles, I have nieces/nephews with ASD and depression I care for deeply. I agree about depression, anxiety and early trauma being formative in my case but it's sad ìf it's intergenerational.

Dimity