Oh hi @BPDSurvivor  @@r, to be honest, I've been a bit shaken up by the two men who walked up my driveway and jumped the back fence, feet away, at the same time I was cleaning up the broken glass late in the day, then worried about security overnight,  I've had evidence of intruders before but never actually seen them. Just unnerved me, and probably why I couldn't sleep all night. I did get a few minor splinters from glass but shoes and gloves help stop that. 

Christmas tends to surfaces a lot of major grief pain for me, so guess these thing impacting, stressing me more than they should I guess. Pushing down more suicide thoughts than usual, which exhausts me, and hearts been racing all day... guess I'm tired and the stress levels are off the chart. But being kind to myself, resting a lot. 
Thanks for asking, good to get it out a bit. How are you tonight?