Thank you for sharing @HenryX  and @Rosemary4. It certainly is helpful to have insight from others, like yourselves, who have similar struggles. 

I think I still have a bit of work to do because I'm currently mostly spending time in bed watching mindless TV shows day in and day out. While it definitely isn't living, it's also what's getting me through at the moment so I'm ok with that for now! Eventually it would be nice to be able to do more though. 

I definitely agree with you around distracting and processing being different things. In regards to distraction I think I was thinking more distraction from the emotion. I'm not very good at identifying triggers yet and there seems to be a lot. Once I'm feeling a big, unwanted emotion I tend to get a bit self destructive so I think I'm more looking for ways to distract myself from being so self destructive once triggered. Maybe processing ties in a bit here. I wonder if I would be less self destructive if I knew how to process better. Perhaps something I should explore with my psychologist!

Anyway, thank you again for your kind words and support @Rosemary4. I really appreciate it. I hope you had a lovely lunch with your friend