Hugs @Gem17 ,

As much as the BPD journey can be so difficult, I felt part of me needed to discover things for myself. 

For years, people tried to ‘help’ me by forcing me to attend therapy, take meds, remove all implements capable of causing SH…. Ultimately, I removed myself from all friends/family connections so that I could find my own identity. I know many people say you should always lean on family and friends, but for me it was the opposite.

My BPD journey was a journey of discovery. To discover myself as well as others. I felt I needed to face this journey without interference. Instead, I turned my focus on intense MBT psychotherapy. You are right - it was SLOW. Yet the results are lasting.

Consider how long it has taken for you to develop the thinking patterns you currently hold (your lifetime). Hence, it takes more than a pill or a week of therapy to change a lifetime’s worth of developed habits.

Hope this makes sense. Your journey and my journey are unique. No two people are the same.

Embrace the journey. Learn from it. If you fall it’s okay. Just hold on.

Despite the challenges, I would NOT exchange my BPD journey for anything. I’ve learnt to appreciate life and people so much more. It has made me a better person.

Hugs, BPDSurvivor