I have to catch a train to Sydney in the morning. Leave home 9.15am and expected at the hospital for admission at 4pm. My spinal surgery will be on Wednesday. Getting pretty anxious about it now. But I think its a good thing I will be in hospital for the next week or more. Takes my mind off my little Holly. I have been waking up during the night panicky and disoriented because I dont feel Holly next to me. Its all really hard.