Hugs to you too @BlueBay . 

There are pluses to a borderline living alone, yet it can also mean isolation and loneliness. Once again, at this point, my life is so full and free that I don’t have time to feel lonely. I actually used to feel lonelier when I was around people.

As for your ‘friend’ telling you they can’t listen anymore, I feel like they were trying to protect themselves because they really didn’t know what to do anymore. 

Back then, I don’t think I could’ve coped with my own company! I know I was hard work, and hence now, I am full of gratitude for those who stuck by me. I take my hat off to carers altogether.

And about having BPD as a child? I seem to think people grow to have BPD so it doesn’t ‘appear’ until late teens to early adulthood when the brain has gone through the major growth periods. I don’t know - that’s my thinking. I’m no brain specialist. But the theory leads me to understand why it takes so long to ‘get out of’ BPD, and why meds don’t ‘cure’ BPD. As I said, that’s my thinking based on my experiences.

You are very important to me, and your feelings and emotions are valid. Hugs, BPDSurvivor