Hi @traumagal 

My birthday is coming up soon also. I generally don't feel like excited about it. I don't know what the connection between birthdays and BPD is... but I do know that I hear your frustration.

Reading your post, I can relate to a bunch of things, especially the flare-ups. I feel disconnected with who I am, being around people a lot and it's easy to feel like I'm losing my grip sometimes.

I hope you are taking small steps each day to recognise and nurture yourself. I'm happy there are lots of trees and plants flowering and I know I won't always feel as crummy as I do lately. I hope you feel a bit better today too.

🙂