I feel privileged that you invite me to your thread.  @Emelia8  that you trust me,  and that I am hopefully one  more little stream  that helps you to that eventual ocean of ,   complete  freedom.      Life does things to people, and 

and mostly there just is no reason for it.  The only control we have is how we handle it,  or endure it.  Somehow you made it this far.  That must have taken a lot of courage.  Courage to seek help,  re-enter,  the event,

and live without the manifestation of demons that cannot be reigned back in.                              Hannah. . .   if it takes

unicorns to help us through dark nights,  then we buy lassos.     We do whatever it takes hey  Emelia.

You'll never quit.    I can tell.   You are determined to live your life and take chances reaching out.

Midnight will pass.   You will see a new sunrise spill shafts of hope through your window,  and 

remember the sweet victory,   You slayed this dark day,   and sent it where darkness belongs.

Oblivion..       You are special,  I sense the kindness and you will prevail..

Hug to you..   and my old slippers to Hannah.                          tonys     😊