Mmmm  @Emelia8 ..  Yes  my friend.   There are things that are most definatley unforgivable.

Most with a diploma on the wall would say Forgiveness is part of the healing prosses.   Not me.

Forgiving is a welcome mat for forgetting.   Forgetting invites the same people to do it all again 

to you.  I'm not one who believes people can change.  They just add more professional coats of paint

to hide that same dark monster within.   You don't stop a head on collision by expending your energy.

You divert the momentum of that energy with deflection.   

I'm saying Use it,   Channel it.   Let that anger flow from you,  into sculpture,  art,  writing, Some form of 

Ugly disfigured  beauty,   that speaks to others who may have been through your pain,  and can connect with it.    I have those living ghosts.   I think of them as dead   till someone or something makes it so . . .

And them I'll think on them  no  more..       "Jessica Lang in  Rob  Roy"

That which is to much to endure,  will eventually succumb to time.      or Karma 

Please be kind to yourself   Emelia.                                  Your friend                                                            tonys..     Now we need a little smile my friend.