i talked to someone earlier on this morning but they werent any help and made me feel like an idiot @Snowie 

@Bella1978@MDT@Snowiei have so much going on in my brain that i cant produce what it is thats wrong because i just dont know whats wrong. its just everything. 

im watching siblings again tomorrow and they are going to be bored and its not their fault im sitting around at home so i need to do soemthing and they will want to see their stupid horses and i dont want to go there. i want to be far away from there atm. i feel like im going crazy 

no thanks @MDT not up for it tonight. goes to fast and overwhelms me