My problems have been magnified by not having anybody to talk or engage with in a timely caring manner regarding real loss of human beings in my immediate family, even though I still keep searching…

yes it is important @tyme and 

and the lack of timely caring attention has its own consequences 

been told off for living in the past…. Not people shocked that I was left with so much to deal with on my own 

kinda why I am here on the forums 

my mother and 3rd sibling had died at the time I first joined Sane …. The earlier deaths were just too complicated to bring up much…. Even on here… I tried to be careful and relevant to others… still all a work in progress