Hi @MJG017 

Please read my post of 10 Mar where I have suggested some of the things you have achieved and these are only things I know about in the short while I have known you.

You have achieved an enormous amount - just organising the Ca support group is a massive achievement. Many people are benefiting from your group.
Now you are also supporting people on the forums. You do not have to do this, but you choose to do it because you are lovely person, who is leveraging off their own experience to help others, that’s not a life wasted. You have not had the background that a lot of other people have and yet you still find time and energy to help others. Please don’t underestimate your impact on other people.
Just these two things or either one alone would mean your life was not wasted and yet you’ve achieved so much more.