Hey @0ddsidian 

Love this .....Don't forget your humanity

@greenpea 

@Faith-and-Hope 

It trips over my tongue a bit. It makes us both different from each other and different creative doesn't it. 

My youngest son is in the black dog. I have this very weird feeling he really wants to connect with me. 

When I went through my tough tougher than years from 1996-2011 I used to walk around, my mantra was ' stay kind, stay safe. ' 

Although I don't know if I was  safe actually ........  My boss told me she's never met a kind-er person but she said some other pretty choice words ....lol 

Strange

Like 

Weird .....

I used to be very similar to @Jacques I cannot believe how we were. 

However there is no way I can study like I used to. Remember the days you don't need to think hard for all these big complicated words to come into your brain. Actually probably that's never happened ...lol 

Yesterday I went to visit my Psychotherapist. I stopped seeing her when I began sane forums. We had a break but I dropped in to see her perhaps twice a year.     ....but I digress ...... I'v seen her since 2003 April. Today we reflected on what I was like when I first saw her. 

Bpd.

Psychotic 

Working like a trouper 

I lost my oldest son. 

My son. 

It's very humbling to remember those years. 

10 years ago ......actually in 1996-2010

We discussed what did it means for me to be - 

Bpd one day 

Psychotic one day 

Delusional one day 

Clear thinking one day and what does that mean. 

This therapist. Who loves me, who spends money on seeing supervisors who .....   Has put up with me for years and I put up with her. 

I used to clean houses to pay for my therapy but today the government pays ( !!!) 

The joys of getting older. 

Doesn't matter when you start or how old you are.