Morning all

Did a gym session
Had dinner out last night for my nan's 85th. Her first birthday since Pop passed away last year.

It was a nice evening.


My dad and aunt and uncle will go with her to Wales in October. She was surprised last night when they told her they will go to south France as well. She's never been.

She loved her present.

I've actually never seen her get so upset in a happy way before. A stark contrast to her on the phone saying that she did all she could just before Pop passed away.

I was a bit disappointed with the behaviour of both of my cousins partners towards my partner and my sister. But it what it is. My partner noticed it. I saw it too. Immaturity perhaps? Boredom. I do not know.

My uncle got quite drunk at a family wedding 1 month ago and said he can see beautiful things with my partner and I. Sometimes alcohol gives us clarity I guess hey? Haha.

Today I will lay down some moretein to keep the creepy crawlies out. Partner getting eaten alive by bugs

I hope to hear about some job applications but I leave that in gods hands (whatever I consider God to be).

I will write my substack today. Not sure if can share it here. It's anonymous as well. So there's no way it can be traces back to me. Either way @moderator I'd like to know if I could.


The weather has cooled off. It feels like autumn. This has brought a sense of nostalgia and memories of Pop with it. Soon I will drive over to the area he was born in

I want so desperately to speak with him in my dreams. But perhaps he is speaking to me in life through what I'm learning each day?

The world still spins and me along with it. But every so often I stop. If only it could stop with me.