@Appleblossom 

I have variety of different physical health issues, OA being one that is causing lots of issues currently.  Severe OA in last 3 discs in my spine causing lots of pain some days and impacting on my walking.

earlier this year I started Schema Therapy which has resulted in lots of blocked memories now being remembered and bombarding my mind.  One of my highest scored Schema is Social Alienation and Isolation, war within myself with myself.  Mix of the memories plus knowledge of that schema leaving emotions very raw.