JDear @Appleblossom @outlander @Eve7 @Shaz51 @Emelia8 ,

i have been absent for a while but think about you all and others . I know some of you have been going through some difficult times and I think of you.  

I too have been really having a hard time finding the positives in life.  My SI has been very active and pops into my head constantly, I really try to manage it and tell myself that life can be good, but I struggle.  

My life has changed so much over the last years and not in good ways. I hate retirement.  It is like being in a waiting room of some sort. 

And now I can’t even see my son who lives in England   It is like a grief for him. 

The sadness I feel I can’t shake off.  I seem busy , but don’t achieve anything. 

I know this doesn’t sound like much when you read it but it feels terrible to me 

my step father died in July, in Victoria and I could not see him while was I’ll and dying. And this has changed so much for the family and I feel very far away from them all.

i don’t know what to say, but I would like to start a day without feeling so sad

peri