@Birdofparadise8 that's interesting. Is it just your mum you can't or don't show emotions around? 
I am guarded when I talk to my mum about my MH issues because she doesn't really understand. She shows more empathy toward others, not so much me. I used to get upset about it but now I know it's not personal, she's not capable of showing emotion to her kids.

It sounds like you took on the maternal role for your mum and you were trying to comfort her, putting her needs above your own.

Have you asked your psych about why you might suppress/repress your feelings? You mentioned you were bullied for many years, maybe it's a defence mechanism?

I told my dad I was hurt by what he said and he implied that I should get over it and give him sympathy because his health is worse than mine. He's always been a self centred SOB but I thought he might actually have concern for me.