I have been feeling sad during the whole Easter period. Is there really any such thing as a happy one?

I don't know why I am sad and in tears all the time. I don't see my psychologist til the start of next month. I am so depressed that I feel like there is no way out. I tried everything I knew and just could not cheer up. I didn't spend it with my family or see friends and just drank two bottles of champagne on my own. Another holiday I may never celebrate ever again.

I Had a massive falling out with an ex love interest. He refused to see that he was controlling, harassing me by digitally abusing me and gaslighting me making me the bad guy. But that isn't the reason. I am also trying to quit alcohol for a while starting today. But that isn't why I am so sad.

I crave more out of my life. I have established my independence and thought about everything I have and not what I have lost. I am not getting much out of my life and I am not having fun.