@Former-Member ... sorry to hear of your struggles, I too have been having a tough time.  I find myself puzzles like sudoku to occupy my mind and have me think of things differently.  

I have also gotten into the herbal tea habit again, and there are good relaxing teas to be found out there along with soft gentle music (or strong vibrant beats dependent on what you feel like)

I am here to talk and listen if needed, and would like to thank you for your support in the past as well, we are all here for each other.