Noooo you're NOT @creative_writer don't let imposter syndrome get ya!! It's SO COMMON for us ND folk, trust me. But no, it is absolutely NOT for lack of trying. In fact, I would argue that we try harder than anyone, because we have to do so much extra work just to ~barely~ keep up with them. 

More like YOU were manipulated by the oppressive parts of the systems we exist within to believe that your differences are a deficit. They are not!!