I know I said to forget about me and I really do mean it @Jynx. I don’t want to bring you down too. I don’t want to hurt you. 

Im writing to you though as I need to get this out. 

I’ve made it to bed. It wasn’t easy. I put Pix and Jett on my bed but both have jumped off. They don’t care about me either. I knew they’d be better off. 

Im laying here wide awake. I guess that’s my fault. But the thoughts won’t stop running around. They are relentless. I don’t want them. I don’t want me. I have so much more I really need to say but I’m scared of the consequences.