@Spirit_Healer @tyme    I’ve been watching Little House on the Prairie on DVD tonight, same as most evenings recently…. Helps block out the world for couple hours.

Local gp appointment I had for Tuesday got changed by gp practice to end of next week.  Waiting to talk with her about 2nd referral for new psychologist (place she referred me to in December said they might have one dr taking new patients and would definitely phone me back either way, not waiting any longer).

last couple weeks have hardly left the house.  Started to slowly sort through everything in the house which most times felt good.  Other days was at least 11am before I felt I was functioning.  Have just been doing what I felt like each day.  Have been undoing cross stitch that was started as had made mistakes when started it few years ago.  Now starting the pattern again which I’m enjoying.

been starting to feel better, noticing things that need doing.  This afternoon and evening been mainly curled up on the couch in tears.  Feel like I’ve got nothing left inside to work as buffer when negative things happen or are said.  

trying to do things that last year I enjoyed.  Trying to do things for self care.  Doesn’t feel like things are working.  Am happiest when at home, just me and the cats but still SH.

I am safe. 

current plans to get to croquet lot earlier than have to.  Have therapist appointment tomorrow afternoon, last week we started getting further into schema therapy.  Will have a talk with her tomorrow about today also