Am Not Coping

[Zoe7]

I have been trying not to think about my appointment tomorrow - especially after last week. I know these sessions are getting more intense @Snowie and they are beginning to affect me. I also know feeling so unwell isn't going to help. You and PR really helped me earlier to not think about anything for a while but know it is getting on top of me again. I really hate the nights and am even more anxious about tomorrow.

[Snowie]

@Zoe7

[Zoe7]

@Sans911 more than happy for you to join in here - could do with all the support I can get tonight

[Snowie]

@Zoe7that is completly understandable hon. 

Perhaps let the pdoc know tomorrow how intense they are becoming and how they are affecting you. Remember you are in control of what is discussed so if it is too hard, moving too fast, not comfortable with it, then you can say lets slow down. 

Your welfare is the most important thing hun and I think your pdoc would agree. It has to be at a pace that is safe and comfortable for you.

I know the nights are super hard, too hard at times. Am here with you hun 

[Faith-and-Hope]

@Zoe7 .... 🦋💜

[Zoe7]

She wanted me to write how hard the nights are - like a case study - but I can't do it - it is too much. I try to talk about it but always shut down - now I am having those same intense feelings after trying to write about it - I don't need to write it when I am constantly living it. I need to find a way tomorrow to let her know how this has affected me tonight @Snowie @Faith-and-Hope @Sans911

[Faith-and-Hope]

Can you do a copy and paste of these posts @Zoe7, and then cross out the user names with a marking pen ?

[Snowie]

@Zoe7ok then don't do it. Can you possible write down why you cannot write about them instead of writing about the nights?

Or just write the words, it is too hard, I cannot do it and give her the piece of paper. 

Your safety/welfare is more important then some words on  paper hon 

[Zoe7]

That is kind of what I was supposed to do @Faith-and-Hope - use some of the posts I have written  but take out any names - I am finding even reading some of them way too hard. It feels like I haven't moved forward at all from those posts and that is not a good feeling. 

@Snowie I think you are right - I have to be honest with her and let her know it was way too much for me

[Snowie]

@Zoe7what you just wrote to me, write on a piece of paper and give it to her tomorrow.