Hi @Leeanne1
Well done. Be proud of yourself for acknowledging that you have made it through the first two months of the grieving process.
My mother had an estranged relationship with my brother for years and it was very painful for her, especially when it involved grandchildren.
She wrote letters for the purpose of processing her grief over the loss of their relationship and the role each of them played. This helped her to heal from the emotions of events that occured and gain clarity on what was important to her.
Finally, when she felt she was coming from the right place, she sent a letter that she felt covered what she had to say, without judgement or blame.
This led them to speaking again, which progressed to a reunion on neutral ground. The relationship is still in repair, but she is grateful not to be secluded from his life anymore.
I don't know if this helps you in making a decision to write to your children or not, but writing about how you feel and what you want to say, is powerfully healing in itself.
Be kind to yourself, you are still grieving.
