I can’t cope

[tyme]

Great to hear from you @Captain24 ! As @Bow mentioned, it definitely sounds like it was a solid appointment. When i used to be in therapy, i'd consider an appointment 'effective' if it made me go home and consider what was uncomfortable with the session, or made me want to make a change.

Some of the most confronting sessions I've had were the ones most effectively actually. It didn't feel like that at the time, but I definitely noticed the difference in retrospect. The fact that the psych was willing to fit you in next week speaks to the need.

And you're working tomorrow, aren't you? 

Cuppa tonight?

tyme

[Captain24]

Thanks @Bow. I think it was good. Not sure with how I feel now though. I should sleep well tonight so that’s a bonus! Lol

[Captain24]

It was so hard @tyme. Way harder than I expected. She is also trying to get me an emergency app with the gp as she doesn’t think my meds are working. She has also booked the next 3 apps as well but is concerned as to the distance between 2 due to work. 

Im feeling really flat now but I’m hoping that I may get a good nights sleep and hopefully wake up in a better place at 4:30 in the morning. Yes I go back tomorrow. 

A cuppa sounds good

Thank you so much for caring. 

[tyme]

Of course I care @Captain24 .

It's so important you have someone to walk this journey with so that you know you are not alone. 

I've been down that path, and without connection and supports, I don't think i would have made it. It was the care of people that kept me going.

Sharing cuppas were also ALWAYS amazing! Cheers to you!

I hope you have a good rest too. 

[Captain24]

Thank you so much for your support @tyme . I really do appreciate it even though I may not always show it. I’m glad you found support because you the support you give back is amazing. 

It has been a really rough journey and I think it’ll be rough for a little while. 

Just have dinner cooking so I have meals for work. Not sure Im up for eating tonight though. But I think and early night is calling. 

[tyme]

I hear it is a rough @Captain24 - for now.

Remember, it won't always be like that. The seas get rough for a while, but then a calm comes after the storm. 

I seen the before, during and after. All I can say is that once you get through the 'during', you'll be amazed at the after. The 'after' has been tremendous for me. 

Every challenging therapy session has been worth it. Every tear has been worth it. Every connection I made has been worth it. I don't regret it one bit. And hence I want to support you through this. 

Who knows? In a few months time, you may be the one supporting that one person who is struggling. 

Kindest, tyme

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ,

Forgot to ask, what are you cooking tonight for work?

I was given a mini pizza tonight. So I had that for dinner. Definitely not my choice of food, but I didn't want it to go to waste.

tyme

[Captain24]

Just pasta bake @tyme but I had to put veggies in it as apparently I need to eat better and look after myself better. They were only frozen veggies though. Lol. It’s part of my homework. 

I love pizza! 

I do hope I can help others as I recover. I’d love to be able to give back what I have been given. Im not sure I’d be here without these forums. I do hope I can remain here. 

[tyme]

Well when we have Community Guide applications open, I'll tag you to see if you are interested @Captain24 . I used to be a Community Guide (volunteer) on the forums before I stepped into paid work. It was the best thing ever, and the Community Guide program definitely supported me to make the decision to be involved in peer work 🙂

Hope work was okay for you. I didn't get to ask what time you finished tonight. 

Here's a cuppa for you and anyone else passing through.

I need a hot choc to warm me up tonight - it's so cold.

[tyme]

@Captain24 ,

I had a frozen meal for lunch today. It was better than I expected. It's not a shop frozen meal. It's one someone cooked for me, I knew I wouldn't eat it straight away, so I froze it. I was lamb curry with veges and rice.

I also have 2 frozen stroganoff meals in the freezer that someone made for me. Actually, they cook for their family plus a bit extra so I can have some. I think they know I don't bother cooking for one.

Thank God I have them!

tyme